Should I stay or should I go?

Hey hey,

So I gathered up the motivation to make it to the gym yesterday. I went to my favorite bootcamp class...well formerly favorite. Usually we warm up with some laps in the basketball court and other cardio exercises. Breaks a sweat, but nothing I can't handle.

Yesterday was different. I hadn't been to a bootcamp class in over a month or so, and things definitely changed. The teacher was like ok, so you guys know what to do, head outside and run up the bridge across the freeway and back three times. I started to laugh thinking he was kidding. Then people started running out and I was like whaaaa??? The class was packed with hot girls, so I found the one with the nicest ass and started running behind her. I tried to use her ass as a carrot to keep me moving.

Oh My God! The run up the bridge was a bitch! I was dying. What made things worse was that the biggest guy in the class high fived me, like we were on the same level. Noooo, how did this happen? I used to be in better shape. I was haven't been the out of shape guy in class in a long ass time! And that's when it happened. The worst possible thing that could happen... He passed me running. Noooo! I was in last place. I hate last place. I used to be a running back dammit! And to make things worse, my knee started hurting so I had to start walking :(

Then back in class, we had to do 50 push ups, because 5 assholes showed up late. Finally I had to walk out after 30 minutes because I was still so worn out from that run. It was a long ass run too, at least 10 miles...or maybe 1 mile...but the details aren't important... I left class for the first time ever, because I was about to throw up from being so tired. I haven't worked out at this weight in years and it's really hard. I'm not used to being this big and out of shape. So now I'm motivated to work out again and get back into shape. For the first time in my life, my knee started hurting. I've never had knee problems before, but I can only assume it's because of the extra weight I'm carrying around. Well junk food, we had a good run, but now I must give you up...(tear)

Now onto more serious matters. Life decisions to make.

My roommate Chris is moving out and the roommate search isn't going too well. Not many people are responding to my ads and those who do, don't follow up to come see my place. So at the end of the month, I'll have a difficult choice to make.

I'll have to put in my own 30 day notice which sucks because I really love my place. It's nice, huge and perfect for having people over. Plus I hate moving because I got so much crap.

So I'll have to decide to move back to Texas Sept 1st and move home. Or try and find my own place to live in LA, which will be hard since I lost all my savings in legal fees, so I don't have anything saved up for a security deposit. It sucks because I'll have to end up paying basically what I pay now for a smaller, crappier place.

I'm torn as to what to do. If I move to Texas, it would be for a year. I can save on rent by living at home. I can pay down my debt so that I don't have to declare bankruptcy. I can learn film editing and photoshop as skills to bring back to LA in order to make money off of. I can also get back into stand up comedy. And hopefully, when I move back, I can bring my best friend Kiyo with me.

The con is obviously leaving LA, putting my dream on hold. Possibly missing out on future acting projects. Having to pay for a move to Texas. And quitting my job which, though it sucks, still pays enough for my bills and with the economy how it is, who knows what kind of job I'll be stuck with when I move back.

If I stay in LA, I'll have to probably put most of my stuff into storage and sublet a room until I can save enough for my own apartment. I'm not a fan of living by myself because it's nice to have a friend around and splitting the bills is nice. Plus right now, I can easily see myself becoming a hermit cuz things suck so badly. However, I'll still have my job and will still be doing acting, so something big can always happen which will get me out of debt and enough money to afford my own place.

So I don't know what to do. I HATE! Absolutely HATE! moving, so it sucks either way. I planned on being at my place for a long time, so I have everything set up at my place how I want it.

What do you guys think I should do? Should I stay or should I go? If I find a roommate last minute, then I'll definitely stay. This is all based on if I don't find a new roommate. AND the move to Texas IS NOT permanent. I'd leave all my stuff here because I'd move back in a year. I refuse to be one of those people who move home and never come back and give up on their dreams.

Not a funny blog, more of a feedback blog. Give me your input/advice.


Comment Responses:

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